Episode Transcript
[00:00:00] Welcome to Deep Conversations, the podcast where I sit down with, well, myself for now, at least. Just think of it as eavesdropping in my inner monologue about life, love, and all the bizarre twists in between. Okay, so are you ready to dive deep with me?
[00:00:22] Do you know about the time that this one trip to, like, a spontaneous trip to south of France turned into the best thing I ever did in my entire life?
[00:00:39] So I was in LA at the time. I had a home in Venice Beach. I really loved my home. It was the perfect setup for me as a single girl in my 30s.
[00:00:52] But I was single, and I was always itching to travel because I had just settled down after a year and a half of traveling around and just living in different countries every three months. But I was tired of it. But I had Venice beach house so that I could just, you know, trade houses with people and I could still travel while being settled somewhere. But it was a few months after I moved in, and I was already, like, I wanted to go somewhere.
[00:01:25] And so this guy that I had met in Buenos Aires, Argentinian guy, was going to France, and he was just like, why don't you come along? And I had the fourth of July vacation, and I was like, oh, why not? But I didn't have a visa for Europe at the time. I needed a visa because I was not a U.S. citizen yet. So I was like, okay, if I somehow managed to get a visa in one week, because it was one week before his trip, I will definitely go to south of France because I always asked for. I always wanted a cute boy to ask me to go travel the south of France with him. Of course I was going to say yes anyway, so I ended up getting the visa. So I headed.
[00:02:20] I took a leap of faith and went to south of France with this guy that I barely knew.
[00:02:28] I thought it was going to be amazing.
[00:02:31] And then I went there and it was awful. He was the worst. He was just, like, not how I remembered of our two or three dates in Buenos Aires. He was like a very nice person. He was a gentleman. I had really liked him. He was like the whole package on paper and everything. And even, like, in person.
[00:02:57] I went out there and he was so horrible. He was so rude. He was like a man child. He was. I don't want to go into, like, a lot of details on this episode at least, but he was, like, a huge disappointment. And it was all awkward, like, the whole trip. And we kept fighting and everything. And I was like, oh, my God, this is the worst. I can't believe this guy managed to ruin south of France for me. So we were supposed to go all the way to Barcelona, like a road trip. But I ended up leaving him around like the border of France and Spain somewhere. This beautiful place in Spain at the border.
[00:03:41] And I was just like I had the car, it was under my name so I had to return it too. And so I was like this guy, I'm going to go do this whole trip by myself so that I need to undo all of these memories and I just need to do it on my own. So I went back and did the whole trip again, like backwards from a different route this time a little bit different. But I did go back to south of France and just, you know, had the best time ever.
[00:04:10] And then it turned into this whole transformative journey for me. It was like I was not happy at my job. I really out my job before. But it was turning into something that I did not like at all. I was doing a lot of reproduction work that was not creative at all. And I didn't have any say in the creative and everything. So I just wanted to have my own business. I didn't know what yet exactly and but I knew I wanted to be out. I didn't like the new team I was transferred to. I hated it etc. So it was showing in my performance but I was about to either quit or get fired, you know.
[00:04:54] And I was just like I didn't want to go back home basically because maybe I said maybe I can just go to Turkey from here because I was working remotely by the way. I can go to Turkey maybe and get a ticket from there and maybe see some family along the way etc before going back.
[00:05:13] And then I got fired when I was in Greece because I was doing like Greece because I was meeting my cousin in Greece and her family because I hadn't spent time with them. I was like, this is perfect. They're going to be in Greece and I can get to know my niece and nephew. This is the perfect opportunity. So I flew to Mykonos to meet them and then I said maybe I could do ferry to Turkey and then fly from Turkey. So that was my plan. But I got fired for being remote. Even though I was living like that for the last year. I guess it was like an excuse to fire me. I don't even know. I don't want to get into that. But anyway, I got fired and it was so liberating. Even though I had no plans, I did have some savings. So I was like this, I'm Going to find a way to do my own business, etc and I will then go to Turkey and I will just, you know, take this time to figure out what I want to do, etc. So I ended up in Bonjupe in Turkey, which is like a glamping place and also like a community. And I had discussed this before also with them that I could just do like a residency there. I could just stay there like a hippie basically. I could just stay there and like do some work for them as a producer. So I was doing their content for them for a few weeks. I was organizing their structure and their branding, etc.
[00:06:39] While I was just staying there. And I had met this guy, this guy who happens to be my now husband. Anyway, this guy, I was like, he was going to be around. We found out by random, you know, by chance that he was also going to be around where I was going to be around the same time. So I was like, why don't you come to Bonjuk Bay and spend one night there? And now we can hang out after as well in occupation, which is like 40 minutes from there, like 30 to 40 minutes. And he was like, oh yeah, why not? Because we had met one year ago. He's just an acquaintance by the way. He was like, you know, we had met on a boat tour. I thought he was really nice and we had like, we were both traveling a lot.
[00:07:23] So I was like, you know, it's nice way to socialize with people. I don't know what draw me to like to him and what made me message him or like him to. I don't remember, like us to message each other. And like I was so persistent on him to come joined me at Bonjuk Bay too. And I didn't know what made me do this. Like some kind of force made me do this. I don't even know why. But anyway, so he ended up at Boljuk Bay. He was supposed to be there just one night but he loved the vibes there so much that we ended up staying there a couple of nights and his friend also joined us there and we had the best time ever. Like it was just. We were on this thread and we were having these deep conversations. We were friends, like very like we became really, really close friends in just a few days and we were just like, I don't know, we were inspired that we were like, we knew some kind of force brought us together. We were on the same level and we were like, we are partners for life now, but we don't know what Kind of partners yet. But we are just. We just know that we're partners. We were thinking about more about like a business partner at the time, because he also wanted the same things as me. Like, he also had the same vision as me. He just didn't know how to execute all of that, like, all of those ideas that he had. Anyway, so we were like, we are partners now. Like, we had this very meaningful and deep conversation on a boat. And yeah, we were like, yes, we are in this for life. And then we were. We kept elongating the time where we're together. And we were like, now we're going to go here. Now we're there. Now we're there, like tomorrow. This is calling us. Etc. And we were just like, moving, like, as if we're Tarzan, like, from one ivy to another. And basically he. We ended up in Izmir, southwest of Turkey. And he said, maybe we can stay at this guy that I, you know, like this mentor, like, guy that I have a friend's hotel in Izmir, and then figure out, like, a flight to get to where we're going next, etc. And then we were there. And then we had a dinner with his friend. And when I was in the bathroom, I had a feeling that they were talking about me somehow. But anyway, they were. And I came back and there was this look on his face.
[00:09:54] And then apparently what the conversation went, how the conversation went was like, basically like, oh, you're so in love. And then he was like, what are you talking about? She's my friend. I'm not in love or anything. And he's like, no, I can see it in your eyes. You're. You're so in love with her. And then he realized, like, especially when he saw me after with the fresh eyes, and he was like, yes, I am in love. Oh, my God, this is. I can't wait to go to the room and, like, open up to her and everything. And then he was all in from that moment on. And we went to the hotel room. And I will never forget that moment. He held me like he were just like, talking very excitedly in the room about something. I don't even remember the topic. And then suddenly he held my hand and he was like, isn't it like, we're never going to be apart from each other ever again for you two? I don't know if I translated that right now because we were speaking in Turkey, but yes, I was like, yes. And now we kissed. And it was like a movie scene.
[00:11:09] It was like a movie Scene. And we never, we were never apart from that moment on until today. And yeah, that was like a pivotal moment for me. And after that, everything was so quick that I knew that it was the, it was like so right. He proposed to me after just 23 days after that moment.
[00:11:35] And like he, he took me to Cappadocia and he was like so excited and he was like so into it. I thought it was just because it was our first vacation together and he planned everything so perfectly. Like the hotel was amazing and like the places when like he was so, so, you know, on it. And then he proposed to me. It like the perfect backdrop with the, the Perry chimneys etc in the back. And I was so shocked. I, I couldn't believe it. And I also couldn't believe that I said yes, like with my whole heart because like those who know me from before, especially like, I would never say yes to like, I, I have, I always have logic driving my decisions that I would never say yes after 23 days with someone because like, I'm like, dude, come on, like, we need to spend more time. But I, I just knew in my heart of hearts that this was the right thing for us. And it was. And we got like, we were engaged and we were going to get married in the summer. And then again, life happened. And after we got engaged, like a few months, like two months or so, we got pregnant and we were so happy and we had. I was like seven months pregnant at our wedding. It was like the most magical wedding ever. And then we had Dunya, our daughter. And she is the most magical being in the entire world. Especially for me, of course. And all of this somehow had to happen. And I was like almost watching it like a movie from the side. It was amazing. And of course you, I know, you know all the boss, boss girls in the background telling me, like in the sidelines, like, what about your career? What about your job? You left your job. And then all of this happened. I don't care. I mean, this is what had to happen for me right now. And I did not, I mean, I did not just turn into a housewife and leave everything about me or anything. This is just my story as of now. But I'm working in the background, especially like in the back burner. And I. All of this had to happen for me to be able to do like, what's for me as well as like for my family. Because this family thing had to happen now or never for me. That's what I found out. And I would never do it any Differently. And as for career, it will come. Like, my time will come. I know. And I learned so much from this journey. Like, I just left my house in Venice beach for a few weeks for what I thought, like, you know, for a guy that I thought would be, like, really nice and amazing or just like a fun trip, I thought turned into this life journey, like a transformative life journey for me. And from then on, I was like, I always looked inside before saying yes or like, I'm all in or I'm all out. It has to be like either or it can't be medium way. You know what I mean? So. And always listening to my gut and always like that. My gut feeling always knows best, what's best for me. And I'm so thankful that I had that courage to leap forward, you know, and saying yes, yes, yes, yes to everything that led me on this journey of what my life is right now.
[00:15:31] I love my husband and I love my daughter so much and I love the family that we built, the home that we built together. I am so thankful for it. And thank you to that douchebag from Argentina. I thank you so much for inviting me on this journey so that I was able to build this life for myself.
[00:16:00] So to end this story, I want to close it with basically, one, trust your gut and your heart of hearts to guide you always, no matter how illogical it may seem on paper or whatever. Two, there's no good or bad things that are happening. There's nothing. I mean, you can't label things as, in your life as good or bad. I mean, you can, but, like, you know, I think that you should not. Because you don't know. You don't know the bigger picture. You will never know the bigger picture. You don't know if something you think that is happening to you right now is bad because it may lead to something amazing that something that you wouldn't even have imagined for yourself. Or you might think something good is happening in your life, but, like, it might turn into something quote, unquote, you know, bad.
[00:16:58] So things are just happening, like if they keep happening one right after the other and just trust the process, basically. Thank you for listening.
